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Sorry, but I would never give you a job for the next 5 years.
You put the effort in but you do not have the skills.
Not in a professional setting.
But I would give you a junior job and see you grow,
Take that as a compliment. There is talent, but where?
A manager or a team leader has to find out such things.
Happened to me in the 80's